When you grow up, my son..

 When you grow up, my son..

I hope you seek answers..
The ‘Why’s behind my ‘No’s, the ‘Plea’s behind my orders..
And the subject of my endless prayers..

I am sure you will see it,
The world I was protecting you from..
and compare it with the world, your dreams came from.

You will know by then,
How easy it is to break something, than to build it
And how easy it is to ignore a detail, than to see it

Believe me, I wanted to give you the world..
but also wanted you to see the line..
where we should feel content and not whine

Yes, I know
you were looking for my yes, in every toy store..
and if I had bought you the store, you would’ve still wanted more!

But I hope you see now, why I didn’t..
and even though I bought it later
sometimes I left those stores, with you in tears

‘coz that moment of disappointment
was what I wanted to teach
one that many poor kids are never able to breach..

I hope you see my fear..
in your every fearless action
and also a hidden pride, born out of my affection

You will see when you have a son, my son..
why sometimes a father seems less caring,
and one day leaves your hand, while you are swimming

Wish I could take you under that water now..
and show you your father,
he was right there to hold you, while holding his breath under water..

I know many times,
you were right, in your own innocent way
but you still had to listen, to whatever I say

I’ve tried to explain then
what you might understand now,
because try as hard as I could, sometimes I didn’t know how!

Yes, at your age,
I loved the bad things too,
even though I never revealed that to you

‘coz like every father,
I wanted my son to be better,
stronger where I was weak and perfect where I would falter

Don’t believe everything I said though,
Yes, I think I can tell you this now ..
‘coz even your father, wasn’t without a flaw

And don’t worry my son,
if you can’t see or explain something..
‘coz yes, I know I wasn’t right in every single thing…!